Maybe you'll remember back to Reverse Weight Watchers.  That would be where I was trying desperately to get Ms Lily to gain weight - and at the same time wanting myself to lose weight.

Well... we are nearly 4 months down the road, and as desperately as I've tried, my Lily gains weight slowly.  She weighed in at a whopping 10 lbs, 2 oz at her 4 month appointment last month.  She was in the 0 percentile for weight and the 1st for height.  Yes, I know that a fact of Turner Syndrome is that she will be smaller.  But I didn't expect it to show up so soon and so severly.  I often wonder how I got children that are in such low percentiles, when I'm in the 200th percentile for weight - or at least that's how it feels.

Fast forward to early this week.  I weighed Lily... and.... drumroll please! 
10 lbs even!
Really?
You have to be kidding me?  In 3 weeks, my daughter has managed to gain oops I mean lose 2 oz?
Really?
OK, she was sick for a week.  That must be it.
Who am I kidding?  She is never going to be the huge, roly poly baby I always imagined myself with.
She is going to be her... uniquely her, and if I've learned anything in the past year, it is that Lily does things Lily's way.

Meanwhile, we see this repeat for the last several weeks at Weight Watchers:
Down 1 lb
Gain .2
Down .8 of a lb
Down 1 lb
Sigh... yes, my weight is also decreasing... slowly, but surely.  I am down a total of 8 lbs in 2 months.  Those 2 months include the holidays.  I'm not making excuses.  I am in all honesty doing exactly what I should be doing:  counting my points.  Its just painstakingly SLOW!  My average weight loss is under a pound a week.  I can't say I'm thrilled.  Can you tell?  I'm not sure when my body is going to wake up and realize that I'm no longer pregnant, and it can let go of the weight - hopefully before summer though, since I really, really don't want to buy a new summer wardrobe.  I already had to buy a new winter wardrobe.  I really miss those pants and tops I put in a bin down the basement.

Lily is destined to gain slowly... I am destined to lose slowly.  I just have to take a few deep breaths and remind myself that in a couple of years none of this will matter - for either of us!