What I'm Missing

These days I'm missing:

• Enjoying fresh fruits and veggies.  Fruit gives me horrible heartburn, and the thought of fresh veggies makes me literally gag.
• Running :( Any thought of movement makes me start to feel nauseous.  I miss the feeling I get after a good run.  At this point, I likely won't be running for quite awhile... but I certainly hope I feel like walking sometime soon.
• Pants that fit.  Regular pants are too small, and maternity pants are much too big - especially jeans.
• Packing my own lunch to bringing to work... I just can't seem to pull something together most mornings.
• My CWWL (Crazy Weight Watchers Leader) and WWers peeps
• The motivation that my Thursday WWers meetings always brought.
• A good nights sleep.
• Measuring things, counting Points and journaling - yes... I'm crazy, I loved it, and can't wait to get back there.
• Chicken - just like last time with "L", really hard for me to stomach.
• Coffee - just the smell of  Starbucks makes me gag, and I'm a freaking gold card member.
• Feeling the inspiration that losing weight brings.

What I am NOT missing:

• Peeing on those stupid OPK (ovulation predictor kit) sticks, and always getting a negative result.  I swear, I never got a positive, AND I still got pregnant... figure that one out.
• Seeing pregnant people everywhere I turn, and knowing I'm not.
• PCOS - Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome - bite it you stupid disease!
• Negative thoughts about my body
• The thoughts that "L" will never have a sibling